when mom doesn't care?

What does one do when you find that you mom really doesn't care of you or what happens to you? You come to find that the faith you were raised in that really has meaning to you, she has little or no understanding of it. You always heard to fear God and be a good person and you will turn out to do fine in life. As one grows up you see so much of the opposite. You see that things are so different. One see that you are to marry a wealthy or one who can take care of you so you are not to work or attend to you. You can be educated, but never really use it. You are to take care of kids, with thier help of course. Not to question the ethics you are being taught. It is not proper to do such a thing. You are back talking an elder. You find out that good girls are ones who are not seen in a skirt above the knee and not in a low cut shirt. Never in alot of makeup. Oh to have thier nails done. Mom cares as long as it is her mean and methods. Mom cares as long as you pay for her lunch. Mom cares as long her morals are yours. She stops once you get your own mind and thoughts. One is not to have take that route. It is there ideals and teaching are the only ones that are right. All kids lie and cheat and steal from them. Of course they do. They take from them. No one will ever do right by them Esp. someone like me. I am always after money and things from her. I am never right. I know nothing. All kids do drugs and steal and lie. But she is all good and knowing. She has no need for a confession, she has said this. She doesn't sin. She is a good person with a heart. Yet she will take the last dime I have and not drop a child support order against me for the sake of marriage and life I should be leading. She has now ruined my credit and I am unable to own anything in no form. If I wanted to work, I am unable. We have 3 forms given here. The application, an i -9 and a credit report. There is now a Federal Debt against me. No one will hire if they could. She has now prevented it. I am considered disabled. But that is of no concerned. She doesn't believe any of this one either. She thinks again that it is a lie and a means for me not to work more. Now currently the unemployment rate is 9.8% I am going to walk out my door and find better work..... this is almost funny. She is a self centered and manipulating person. You have to agree with her or else. She hates the one neighbor but will do anything for one other one. How Christian is that? I thought we were to love our neighbor and our enemy... I am not sure on that exact wording. I was told to forgive her. I am working on it. daily right now. I did call her and told her I remembered her anniversary. it would of been 60 yrs. I am not the one who forgets this, she has yet to remember mine. I am not the one who carried a grudge but I do remember things. I will one day tell her all things. Not sure when. She claims she has a heart, selective one as it was said to me. I agree. Either you do or you don't to to. I am not greedy or look for money, she does and lives for it. I just want the one who will take me for me and respect me for the person I am. It is not what you have but who you are. it is not where you come from, what is inside that matters. You can't change others only yourself and how you see them....